Xin.
~~Searching for a goal, a purpose, a value in life which is worthwhile as an end in itself and not merely as a means to some other ends~~

Life's journey.
Life is not gentle - far from it. From time to time, it will hand you disappointment, grief, loss, a formidable difficulty, often when least expected. But never forget you can surmount the worst it brings, keep on going, and make your way up again. You will find that you are stronger and maybe better off for having had some bad experience. No matter what has happened to a person, that individual still has within vast undamaged areas. Nature always tries to repair, so don't be discouraged when you suffer a blow - Norman Vincent Peale

Inspirational quotes.
It is in your moment of decision that your destiny is shaped - Anthony Robbins

You'll always rise in life to the level of responsibility that you're willing to accept - Ralph Waldo Emerson

It is one of the most beautiful compensations of this life that no man can sincerely try to help another without helping himself - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Nothing has any power over me than that which I give it through my conscious thoughts - Anthony Robbins

What lies behind us and what lies beyond us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us - Ralph Waldo Emerson

The highest reward for man's toil is not what he gets for it but what he becomes of it - John Ruskin

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference - St Francis of Assisi

Anyone can be angry, that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, at the right time, for the right reason, to the right degree, in the right way, this is not easy - Aristotle


ramblings.


archives.
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mates.
Bro
Apis
Bei Xuan
Cindy
Kristin
Maureen
Terence
Wei Hong
Zhi Liang

credit.
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I'm a little sick of the long distance calls and stuff and things are starting to get mudane and boring. I know you call me all the time but it makes a big difference when you are not here. I don't mind going over though I have my difficulties at the moment. How can I tell you how I really feel? Sadz.. Parents going away for the weekend and I left to take care of the house.. I wanna hang out for a bit but seems like I don't really have a choice.. Haiz, what to do.. =(

I'm bored shitless. It's 2am now and I still can't sleep. So here I am once again re-evaluating my life. All my life, I have been on an never-ending search for meaning (eudaimonia) in my life. Yet, when I look back on my life, I realised that what I have been pursuing is nothing more than pleasure and desires (hedonism). This is damn sad.

Learning positive psychology supposedly should enable me to attain more happiness, by cultivating a grateful mindset, focusing on intrinsic goals, etc etc. My lecturer tells us that we should apply what we have learnt to the workplace and the people around us, to see for ourselves firsthand how it can bring happiness to others. Sadly, despite knowing the theory of it, I am not really able to apply it in my life. Too many things depresses me. Yet, I see myself as a happy person. I really think I am more neurotic than I think I am.

My life is like a roller-coaster ride. At times, I am at my highest (like when I get oxygen pumped into me, and I go into an adrenaline high), but at times I am at my lowest, where I get really depressed and upset over small little little things that I am even bewildered by myself. And at other times, I am just really bored with my own life.

There are just so many things that I still wanna do but I wonder if I still have the opportunity to experience it anymore. Life makes a joke out of you sometimes and leave you out of life's many enjoyable moments. I long for happiness and I really wish that you can bring me some. But somehow, I feel that I am not able to trust you anymore. Maybe I'm just paranoid.

p.s: I think my english sucks now after abstaining from english for about a year now and I can't really form proper english sentences..