Xin.
~~Searching for a goal, a purpose, a value in life which is worthwhile as an end in itself and not merely as a means to some other ends~~

Life's journey.
Life is not gentle - far from it. From time to time, it will hand you disappointment, grief, loss, a formidable difficulty, often when least expected. But never forget you can surmount the worst it brings, keep on going, and make your way up again. You will find that you are stronger and maybe better off for having had some bad experience. No matter what has happened to a person, that individual still has within vast undamaged areas. Nature always tries to repair, so don't be discouraged when you suffer a blow - Norman Vincent Peale

Inspirational quotes.
It is in your moment of decision that your destiny is shaped - Anthony Robbins

You'll always rise in life to the level of responsibility that you're willing to accept - Ralph Waldo Emerson

It is one of the most beautiful compensations of this life that no man can sincerely try to help another without helping himself - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Nothing has any power over me than that which I give it through my conscious thoughts - Anthony Robbins

What lies behind us and what lies beyond us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us - Ralph Waldo Emerson

The highest reward for man's toil is not what he gets for it but what he becomes of it - John Ruskin

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference - St Francis of Assisi

Anyone can be angry, that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, at the right time, for the right reason, to the right degree, in the right way, this is not easy - Aristotle


ramblings.


archives.
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December 2006
March 2007
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May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
November 2007
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
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August 2009

mates.
Bro
Apis
Bei Xuan
Cindy
Kristin
Maureen
Terence
Wei Hong
Zhi Liang

credit.
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resources: x x x

Disappointed once again

Once again I'm disappointed in you. Time and time again, I have tried to be warmer to you but each time, you never fail to disappoint me. Now I'm starting to think why I even bothered in the first place. ~Sigh~

I can see the favouritism. I tell myself it's okay but why do you have to balantly show it in front of me and pretend that nothing just happened. I'm not blind. Initially, it doesn't bother me but why do I have to give you money to sustain your favouritism. Maybe to you, I may be nothing more than an atm machine.

I shouldn't care anymore or so I tell myself. But I still can't bring myself to let you fend for yourself when you grow old and die, which I vowed to do so years ago.. especially when I had a good look at you today, I realised how much you have aged in the past year (or years). I can't remember the last time I had a good look at you (you always annoy me). What does this show? Am I too nice a person that I am always overlooked? Or am I just plain selfish (back to the way I once was) that this small act bothers me too much for me to take it in my stride.

Does this motivate me to be more mercenary once more so that I don't have to rely on my family? YES. But do I really want to do so? NO. Trust me you guys may not see it now, but 10 -20 years down the road, you are going to witness first hand how she bites the hand that feeds her. And by then, it will be beyond me to do anything about it.~Sigh~ Now I'm really hoping for school to start so that I'll be too busy to think and feel.